inadvertent

it's almost been a week since i woke up and was a different person. and for someone having to take in everything as a brand new experience, i think i'm doing pretty well. by 'doing pretty well' i mean i haven't had too many social mishaps or anything bad like that. although the change is obvious. i go to work and people are asking if i'm sick or pissed or going through something and since i can't exactly come out and tell them i had a shroom trip and lost myself, i tell them that i'm fine. and i paint the smile everyone is so familiar with on my face. and they look at me. and for a split second, they debate not letting the issue go and saying something. then, BAM! just as fast as that thought slammed into their head, social etiquette kicks in and they remember that they're supposed to walk away. and that's exactly what they do.

you have no idea how happy it makes me that nobody outside of my group of friends is acknowledging this. it makes it so much easier on me. gives me time to adjust.